Coming up from within

A movement has started, and not in the world… but in me.

As I watch, my son is growing right out of the nest. He gained his first job yesterday and has joined the Marines. With only a semester to go he will graduate early and be on his way into the Great Wide Open.

I find myself feeling younger these days as I chase my dreams and still can’t believe I mother such a fine young man. My daughter is no less to speak of. With golden hair and a smile that shines from her deepest spirit, she lightens my step and gives me hope for the future. Her smarts inspire me and I never know when she will surprise me.

I am finding that I am truly at a new area in my walk. Learning that not everything has something to do with anything… but that maybe it just is. As I am. In the past, the cloud that has hung over my head from my rearing has been despondent and a constant reminder of my anguish. I have tried so many times to move past the ugliness I was subjected to. I have now found that I have embraced it with all the energies of a great God who has shown me, that they just were. But through time and experiences we learn what we are made of and what we are for.

I am now implementing so many practical sides of myself in my works. Enjoying what I do and why I do them. The purpose of life isn’t necessarily to get somewhere, its to be happy where you are. I can honestly say, I am surely getting there.

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Indepence Day 2013

Its been over two years since my divorce. I am happy, settled with a lover, have my two kids growing rapidly from the nest, started my business, On the Bus Productions and still find myself wanting more. Recently, my band has gone through major changes… We built Corrie Vallance & the DramaNots by accident. The bands members were all friends and just wanted to play music… In the middle, somehow, I got caught. Working at sharing my Original Music, We were booked, asked to play, and media-ized across the county. We have few followers, but they are devoted and we love them. The members all come from different pasts, playing music for different reasons…

I recently found myself confused as to why I was trying. The hope for some is to make money or not to play out at all… as they have lived the “scene” and are not willing to try and push any further. Whereas some are starting a whole new beginning and want to play for exposure and the fun of the stage! Where some, have played for both reasons, still have the drive, but not sure why… yes, that is me.

I am beginning a new works with my gathered original collection. I have written 46 songs now and have done nothing to speak of with any of them. I find myself wondering, “Will they be remembered?” the next question that comes to mind is “Why do I care?” With such confusion of a “girls mind” I simply was not sure where to start. So, I thought, why not start at the beginning? I have a great partner in life who is helping me decipher the different genre’s I have written. We plan to group them together and then produce them one by one. The release won’t happen for at least a year… but I think the journey exploring my past written lyrics and newer happenings might be a soul seeking one. I look forward to what comes out of it in the end. So, as it is Independence Day 2013… I too, start another New Beginning looking from my Past.